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The
following are some issues/needs that I may have. Which words in Shemonah Esrei
deal with each of these requests? By Mrs. Yael Kaisman
1. Sometimes I
get angry about "small" things that people do to me. I get annoyed
when I feel that people take advantage of me in any way (for example,
borrowing money and not returning it, counting on me for rides). I wish that I
could overlook it.
"Vinafshi
Kiafar Lakov Tiheyeh"- My soul should be like dust to others, and have
enough of a sense of self to be ok when others step on me- stop making
everything into a power struggle. Also, be Dan Likaf Zechus. (Read "The
Other Side of the Story" by Mrs. Sammet.)
2. My friend
always seems to be chosen for many positions (for example, G.O., school play),
whereas I am not. Sometimes I find it difficult not to be jealous.
"Lo
Ta'aleh Kinas Adam Aly, Vilo Kinasi Al Acheirim" and "Shalom"-
We should be united and see all of Bnei Yisroel as one.
3. I am really
sorry that I read the magazine that I did while in the doctor's office.
Certain thoughts enter my mind because of it, and I wish that I could be
protected from such situations.
"Hashiveinu",
"Atah Kadosh", "ViliYerushalayim", or "Visechezenu
Einaynu"- We must keep our sensitivity to Kedusha and guard our eyes if
we want to see the Shechina in front of us.
4. An act of
Hashgacha Pratis took place today, and I feel so grateful about it!
(For example, I wanted to go shopping and my friend called me, out of the
blue, and invited me to go shopping with her.)
"Modim"-
Hold on to our daily acts of Hashgacha Pratis!
5. I've learned
about Bitachon so many times and I've thought about it often, but I still feel
more secure when I'm in charge of a situation. Trusting in Hashem is something
that I wish I felt, but it's hard to internalize.
"Al
Hatzadikim- Vchol Habotchim Bishimcha Biemes, Visim Chelkeinu Imahem"-
Put us amongst Ba'alei Bitachon!
6. My allergies
are really bothering me. I'm miserably uncomfortable and I'm finding it
difficult to function normally.
"Rifaeinu"
7. Sometimes I
feel that many of my Kochos are not really being fully developed, whether they
be in personal, social, or Ruchniyosdik areas. I know that I can try harder,
but I really feel frustrated at my lack of progress.
"Tikah
Bishofar Gadol"- Until then, we work hard, because something is missing.
8. People are
always asking me, "What's your major?" I enjoy Science, but I'm also
thinking of teaching. I wish that I was clearer about which area would be
wisest for me to pursue.
"Atah
Chonen", or " Hashiva Shofteinu Kivarishona"- We need Nevi'im
back to help tell us what to do.
9. Despite all
of my attempts not to feel this way, I still feel "angry" about some
painful events that have taken place in my life. I wish that I could stop
feeling this way.
"Atah
Chonen"- Clarity, and the next Bakasha is "Hashiveinu Avinu
Lisorasecha"- When we have clarity, we crave to be close to Hashem. So
too, we crave to get frustrations of relationships out of the way.
10. Sometimes I
am so disappointed that I cannot be Mekarev my irreligious relatives because
of all of the misconceptions that they have.
"Vilamalshinim"
11. With all of
the complexities that exist in the world of Kashrus nowadays, I try very hard
to be careful, but the more that I hear about the problems, I feel that I need
so much Siyata Dishemaya not to be Nichshal.
"Bareich
Aleinu Es Hashana Hazos Visabeinu Mituvecha"
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